To Vincent

Vincent,

I often read about you. I wonder what were you thinking in the final days of your life. I am sorry that the fight with your inner demons constantly left you in sorrow. It must be painful, to escape from a prison of your own dimensions. Were you in a rush to get to eternity's gate? It must have been all torturing and cynic and maddening to be at times thinking with a mind that's no longer your own.

Vincent, I wonder.

You must have exhausted everything, to regularly move from one place to another. To live in houses that bear faces of unfamiliarity and far from comfort. But though home is unlikely certain, you embedded in you your love for what you do. So that must be true love, Vincent. To willingly starve yourself and live frugally, deprive yourself of the basics of survival, as you would rather spare much of the little you have to procure materials that'll get your skilled hands and genius art perspective underway. If only people could love the same way as you.

On that faithful night of July, was it really the end you wish for? Did the thoughts that cloud your night sky finally settled elsewhere to give way for the stars? Maybe they didn't. If they could have only spared you. Of yourself. Of despair. Of the inevitable. Of the black tunnel that consumes you. The stars you considered your hope, the stars you've longed to reach, are now the same stars you can finally call home. 

Vincent,

The sunflowers have died with you. I wondered how much they grieved at your demise that they gradually wilt and no longer wish to breathe the sun. They have loved you, Vincent. Every stroke of your gifted, troubled hands. The bright colors of your palette that sprung from the sun. They have listened to your blues,the same blues that betrayed you.

Vincent, 

I know how much you've yearned for people to see you, and though much of the world could not understand. The Sunflowers and the Irises and the wheat fields did. So did the Starry Night over the Rhône, and maybe, that's always been enough. 

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